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Alex | 18 | Philippines

useless. pointless. i only succeed in failing.


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I hope that someday, you find an amazing girl. The kind of girl who means everything to you and makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her. The kind of girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about her beautiful smile, and when you finally fall asleep, she`s all you dream about. I hope she`s the first thing to cross your mind when you wake up in the morning. I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand, yet you know it`s for the better. I hope she`s the kind of girl you would die for. The kind of girl who could make you cry, even though you`d never admit it. The kind of girl who makes you want to go out and do something special, something that means everything to the both of you. The kind of girl you can have silly fights with, then kiss and make up and hold her in your arms like you`re falling in love all over again. I hope you make memories with her her you never forget. I hope she`s your world, and what you have with her is nothing less than perfection. and I hope that one day, you lose her. I hope you mess up and as hard as you try to keep her there with you, she slips through the cracks of your broken heart. I hope it destroys you, because you realized you`ve lost the person you once called your everything. I hope you see every moment you spent together spin away down the drain like it was waiting to happen. I hope you stay up at night because she`s on your mind and when you fall asleep, she haunts your dreams. I hope her beautiful smile stays pressed in your mind like a scar that won’t fade away. I hope you realize that you`re a new person because of her, I hope your new self feels incomplete without her and you miss the old you. The one that was okay with being alone, because you’d rather be the heartbreaker than the heartbroken.


Posted on 9/Jul/14 with 1,196 notes Reblog

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.


Posted on 8/Jun/14 with 444 notes Reblog

Date a girl not because she is sexy, pretty, smart, or funny. Date a girl not because you want to get laid or you’re just lonely. Date a girl not because you are sick of being single. Date a girl not because she can be a trophy girlfriend or because she makes your homework and school projects. Date a girl not because she is rich and famous. Date a girl not because she is the girl that your mom would like you to marry. Don’t date a girl because you pity her, or because of some lame, stupid dare, or because you just want to play with her. Don’t date a girl if you know you are not going to be serious with her.

Instead, date the girl that you would love to marry. She may not be your mom’s version of a “good wife” for you, but she already is to you. Date the girl with whom you can be your complete self with. Someone with whom you can fart and she’ll say “ew, you’re so gross” but would kiss you after. Someone who can make you cry but would never do it. Someone who can make you smile by smiling at you. Date the girl who could wouldn’t tolerate your wrongdoings. Someone who would correct you if you are making a mistake, someone who wouldn’t let you get hurt because of your own actions. Date the girl who would love you enough to commit to you, would accept you for who you are even if you are not that rich, cute, smart and witty. Just someone who can always find something good in you, even if it’s really lame.

Date a girl with whom you picture having a future with. Not just some one night stand, but a honey moon. Date a girl because she has touched you in a unique way. Date a girl because you love her enough to commit to her. For real.


- Just a reminder (m.b)

Posted on 8/Jun/14 with 947 notes Reblog

We started as friends.

We always have a simple, normal conversation. You always asked about how’s my day and I always asked you what’s up. Feelings are not that strange because we thought we had this same, normal, no malice feeling towards each other.

We started to care for each other.

I worry about you most of the time as much as you worry about me when you don’t get any messages or replies from me. I ask you where have you been or what are you up to and you do the same thing to me.

We started to get a little attached to each other.

You always tell me things like where would you go, what are you going to do or who you’ll be with and just like you I always inform you as if were both oblige to do those things. We started to be more concern of each other

We became committed.

I am officially yours and you’re officially mine. We decided to bring our relationship into the next level. We decided to became couple. We made everything legal and we gave our relationship a chance to became one.

We met struggles, we had fights, we almost break-up, we almost gave up.

We thought everything would go smooth but were totally wrong. We met so many circumstances along the way. We had misunderstandings, we had great fights. I shouted and you yelled. I cried, you kneel. You asked for forgiveness and i’m too weak to see you hurting so we gave each other second chance.

Days passed. Months passed. Years passed.

Were now strangers with memories. And when I met you along sidewalks, I can still remember how we ended and it hurts me because I thought were gonna make it. But sadly, we didn’t.


- strangers with memories (xx)

Posted on 21/May/14 with 287 notes Reblog

My eyelids are edges of earthquake cracks,
swallowing countless houses and cows jumping
over the moon just to make me fall asleep.
But in my thoughts the clouds are still eating
afternoon sunlight:
I am jealous
of my grandmother’s hands
being held by old photographs,
my mother’s wrinkles carrying recipes
for forgiveness every time we make foolish
mistakes about who to love, and who deserves
to love every mistake we make
out of loving.
Its funny how every memory
comes back with the moon as a witness.
I have curtain eyes,
a heart with steady steps on the stairs
of my lungs, breathing every fistful
of you, and of us. Nowadays, I keep
anything that moves in the dark:
My heart, the smell of waves on your spine,
and the way your lashes are shaped
like blinking shorelines every time you close them
when kissing me. And I remind myself,
that tonight, and every night from now on
you, are no longer mine.


- Kharla M. Brillo, The beginning of pain (via iamunheardd)

Posted on 10/May/14 with 251 notes Reblog

Anonymous: Ano po itsura ni JC? Thank you.

Hahaha. Talagang tinanong sakin haha. Ang masasabi ko lang, maganda siya. Tsaka nangako akong di ko pagsasabi e haha :)

Posted on 17/Apr/14 with 2 notes Reblog

Perfection is the disease of society.


- Six-word story

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1. Appreciate your dad, you don’t know what will happen.

2. If you don’t want to wear make up, don’t. For Christ sakes, you’re young and beautiful. Society can go fuck their self.

3. It’s really okay to love yourself. Appreciate the funny curve of your nose, and that gap in your teeth make your smile prettier. Just because you don’t look like that girl in the magazine doesn’t mean you can’t tell yourself you’re beautiful every now and then.

4. Do what makes you happy. I know you’ve heard this a million times, but I can’t stress this enough. Go after your dream job even if it goes against every thing your parents wanted. If you don’t like where you live, move. Your friends don’t make you laugh until your sides hurt? You don’t have to be friends with them anymore. You’re in control. No one else. Don’t fall under the pressure of pleasing people. Please yourself and live for you.

5. Love who you want. Regardless of gender, skin color, or societal views. Please never give up true love because you’re scared. Love is a beautiful, beautiful thing, and if you’re lucky enough to come across it don’t you dare walk away from it because of what others will think. Take the looks, the whispers, and the criticism with a smile, grab your lovers hand, and if you’re feeling extra happy, kiss them for the world to see. Let me tell you, the world is only jealous because they simply can’t understand.

6. Take long showers and lay on your bed naked after, sing too loud, sleep through your classes one day, and another day just don’t leave the couch. It’s okay to just decide you don’t have responsibilities for a little bit. Everyone needs a day ever so often to just relax. It’s okay to be lazy. It’s okay to sleep for 12 hours straight. It’s okay to go to bed at 6 AM because you’re reading and wake up at 3 the next day. Treat yourself, but most importantly love yourself enough to give yourself time to breathe.

7. Alone time is good for the soul. I truly believe that. I think it’s good to cancel your plans sometimes, close your door, turn off your phone, and play some John Mayer (or whatever your prefer). Maybe you could read a book, or hell even write one if you’re up for it. But take some time to yourself and learn to be happy with just you and the sound of your breathing. At the end of the day, you are the only person that is guaranteed to stick around, so you might as well learn to enjoy the way laugh at your own jokes or the way you pronounce words when you read aloud. Being comfortable alone is more important than you know.

8. It’s okay to be 20 and still love Disney movies. It’s not even a guilty pleasure. Everyone has their favorite whether they admit it or not.

9. Do not compromise who you are to impress someone else. You are a wonderfully constructed individual. Your trials, experiences, and life all together have sculpted you into the most lovely version of you possible. If a person doesn’t like the way you live, from your sex life to your music taste, who cares? You were not put on this earth to impress them, or anyone for that matter. Impress yourself. Stick to what you want, stand up for what you believe, and tell people to screw off if they have an issue with any of it. It’s your life.

10. High school does not in any manner prepare you for college. One time my teacher dismissed class early because a kid fell down the stairs and he was laughing too hard to continue the lecture. That’s all I have to say about that subject.

11. I know you’re making a ton of new friends at this stage in your life, but don’t forget whose been there from the start. Your new friends may be exciting and wonderful and the best friends you could imagine but the ones that knew you back in middle school and were still there for you are genuine. If they loved your through your awkward phase, they’re probably in it for the long run. So send some love their way ever so often. When you’re older, you’ll be glad you did.

12. Your mom will probably cry a lot during the next few years. Let her. Hug her. Cry with her. She just wants you happy at the end of the day. You’re growing up, and life’s exciting, but you have to remember that you’re her baby, and the more you find yourself, the more she feels she’s losing you. I know you’re getting older, but so is she. Spend Sunday afternoons telling her about your life or reading her your new poetry. She’ll appreciate that so much, and you will too later on.

13. It’s okay to get drunk. Whether it be just for fun or that you need liquid courage to text an ex, it’s completely fine. And you know what else is completely fine? Not getting drunk. It’s okay to be the mom, the DD, or to not even show up to the party at all. It’s all okay. But you know what isn’t? Judging whatever decisions your peers make. So what there was a photo posted and that girl you went to high school with was wasted? It’s not really any of your business is it. And if that guy decided to go to that poetry reading and skipped the biggest party of the year, It’s really not effecting you at all, so don’t act like it does.

14. Stop glamorizing sadness. Sadness is not beautiful. It does not glow. Disorders are not something to make light of, and scars are not something to be ignored. Be proud of who you are. Eat that hamburger, and put the razor down. And most importantly, smile. Happiness is by far the most beautiful thing about a person.

15. It will all be okay at the end of the day. Life has a funny way of working out.

16. Speaking of funny, life literally never goes as planned. Don’t waste your time fretting over the future. Faith and destiny work hand in hand to make sure life keeps you on your toes.

17. Karma is a real and powerful thing. Please try to keep it on your side. Your bad deeds catch up with you in a big way. Take your time to build up your good karma, and do some good for other people, even if the deeds are small. Put a quarter in an expired parking meter, serve food at a homeless shelter, or go visit an elderly person at the nursing homes. Good deeds are good for others, and good for your soul.

18. You can never go wrong with pizza.

19. Don’t wish your years away. I know you’re at that age where you’re responsible for your choices, but aren’t really considered an adult but you’ll want these years back. Being young is the most fantastic, exciting adventure you will ever endure. And when you get older you’ll wish for these years back, even all the bad days that came along with it. So enjoy your youth, relish in it. Because you will never be younger than you are right this second.

20. And lastly, if you ever feel unloved and worthless, just know I love you and find the upmost worth in you. You’re destined for big things, now go get them.


- 20 things I think you should know before you turn 20 (via brennanat)

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..and no one knows that I can’t hold on anymore…

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Favorite Quotation

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” ― Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets